hmm..... sebenernya bingung juga gimana ceritainnya di jurnal ini....
aku punya temen, dikenalin ama koko angkat ku... awal aku respek ama dia setelah hari ultah ku, coz dia ternyata memberikan sesuatu, dan aku ga nyangka banget..... lalu dr situ aku mulai chat ama dia..... sewaktu dia sakit, aku suka sms dia, nanya gimana kabarnya pada hari itu..... itu awal kedekatan aku ama dia... dia sering ngajak aku diskusi, apalagi sewaktu dia mempersiapkan bahan untuk sharing gitu.... entah kenapa, dr situ mulai timbul suatu perasaan yg lain.... awalnya aku takut hanya terbawa perasaan....
lalu sejak aku memberikan perhatian pd saat dia sakit, setiap hari aku pasti ada chat ama dia.... karena makin sering chat itu, perasaan ku makin dalam ke dia.... makin ada rasa sayang....
suatu saat, perasaan gw lg campur aduk banget, trs dia nawarin untuk nelpon gw... gw belom jawab, dia udh keburu nelpon... jd ya udah, akhirnya ngobrol bentar di telpon... abis telpon, balik lg chat... dan mulailah ini ceritanya,,,,
him: i wish i have the chance too
him: but... do i have?
him: yes... i do have
me: chance apa?
him: to say something to the one that i love
me: ooww...
him: and i don't know whether i am going crazy
ternyata, cewek yg dia maksud adalah gw...... gw langsung
karena ternyata dia merasakan hal yg sama ama gw..... dan dia mengucapkan kata2 ini "Let's sail the boat from the harbour"
tapi akhirnya hubungan kami ga ke arah situ, setidaknya untuk sekarang ini.... karena aku blm pernah bertemu langsung, cuma pernah webcam..... di bawah ini adalah potongan2 conversation nya....
him : have you ever thought about my age..?
him : you're still continuing your study for few years
him : and we also never meet before
him : when i asked you .... you told me that you are doubt about it
him : i understood
him : gak ada sesuatu yang gak mungkin
him : may be i can help you to understand "Objective thinking" using this problem
him : put it this way
him : Your conditions :
him : 1. you are still studying
him : 2. You are at jakarta
him : 3. You are still very young
him : My conditions :
him : 1. i am mature enough
him : 2. i am at ********* -->
yg pasti bukan di indohim : from your side, you told me that you doubt....
him : from my side i said that it can happen
him : from neutral side...we can say.... it is possible... but it will have a lot of doubts
him : that's the answer of the questions
sekarang, aku ama dia lg jarang komunikasi.....ya sudahlah, liat aja nanti hubungan ini akan seperti apa....